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A Swede who grew up in England and studied in America for uni but spent the 2012-2013 academic year studying art history in Paris and now is back in London. It's confusing. Recounting my adventures here, there and everywhere with a photo a day.
My mother thinks I'm funny.

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    06/09/2014

    Sitting in the backseat of car, you can get some pretty interesting views. We drove Maria first to Arlanda airport to pick up Martin, before driving both of them to Uppsala to Martin’s parents. Maria, Martin and his parents were all going to a wedding, so my mother offered to drive all four of them to the wedding instead of taking a bus, meaning that I was pushed to the trunk where our good old 25 year old Volvo (the car is older than me, that’s so crazy) has a seat that folds out. It was quite amusing, especially since I had a bottle of wine in hand and we were driving to what became increasingly the countryside. 

    The coolest thing when we got there were the runestones by the church! After, it was a long drive back for my mother and me. Hopefully the wedding was fun!

    — 1 week ago

    #Drive  #Countryside  #Sweden  #Sverige  #Uppsala  #Runestone 

    05/09/2014

    Home in Sweden and had a wonderful dinner and reunion with my mother and sister.

    — 1 week ago with 2 notes

    #Home  #Sweden  #Family  #Sister  #Mother 
    04/09/2014

    04/09/2014

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    03/09/2014

    Voted and afterwards had a wonderful walk through Marylebone and then Paddington. It feels good to do my patriotic duty and be part of deciding the future of Sweden.

    — 1 week ago with 1 note

    #Voting  #Elections  #London  #Sweden  #Expat Swede 

    02/09/2014

    A cosy Tuesday night with my girls, including Conni reading some beautiful EE Cummings poetry.

    — 1 week ago

    #Tuesday  #Poetry  #Friends  #Beauty 
    01/09/2014

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    31/08/2014

    Art day with Sian! We went to the Saatchi gallery to what I thought was Abstract America but was actually Pangea (the fact that the first room was full of ants was a  hint). I still liked it, particularly the big paintings. Afterwards we went to the Nordic Bakery in Soho so that Sian could try the cinnamon buns before trying to head to Cameden Arts Centre. It didn’t go as planned as it’s a weekend a not all the Underground lines were running, so we ended up walking around from Baker Street to Marylebone high street.

    — 1 week ago with 1 note

    #London  #Art  #Saatchi gallery  #Friends  #Art gallery 

    30/08/2014

    Watching the Great British Bake Off does make me want to bake, but also watching it makes me realise that there is no way I can compare with those bakers. This week’s episode did force me to rethink an old classic in the molten lava cake and that made me think - I should try something new.

    Caroline humoured me and allow me to cook dinner, so I made my first ever savoury pie with a crust which was a chicken and mushroom pie (thinking now - I should have put some kale in) and for dessert was a chocolate and caramel molten lava cake. The caramel didn’t turn out exactly how I wanted and the chocolate was supposed to be all cooked but it was delicious nonetheless. I’m just pleased that I managed to pull off two new recipes in one night. I think trying to make my own bread is next.

    — 2 weeks ago with 1 note

    #Baking  #New  #Trying new things  #Pie  #Cake  #Molten lava cake  #Pudding  #Savoury pie 

    29/08/2014

    Blasts from the past. Old images I found, mostly taken with disposable cameras. Physical objects are great.

    — 2 weeks ago

    #Photos  #Past 

    28/08/2014

    In the beginning of the week, I ordered my weekly food shopping (and next week’s) from Ocado because they had offered a £20 voucher and as I am always gone on the weekends, I never have food Monday morning for work, so I thought I would give it a try. Honestly, I don’t know what I was expecting but it was not that much food at once. I think it will last me more than the two weeks I was expecting and the basket of items was slightly random, since I had originally based off a week-long list of recipes that I then scratched since it was two expensive.

    As Thursday rolled around, I realised that I had barely made a dent in all the food in my fridge so I googled recipes using mushrooms and scallions (what did people do before google?). Not to brag, but my dinner was so delicious. I ended up making a mushroom-scallion-kale mix on toast with salad to the side. It was that perfect mixture of comfort food and healthy.

    — 2 weeks ago

    #Food  #Dinner  #Scallions  #Mushroom  #Delivery 
    27/08/2014
Today my colleague asked how long I had been there, saying, “was it since March?” No, in fact, I am approaching my third month at the gallery and it has made me realise that whilst I started confident and ready to take on any challenge, right now I am TERRIFIED of my job.
Terrified of messing up, terrified of not knowing how to do things and most of all, terrified of my colleagues not liking me or thinking I’m a bad worker. I really didn’t think that I would be succumbed by such fear or start becoming so negative at myself, but there it is, I don’t think I’m that good anymore.
With any new life venture, there are things you are going to not know how to do. Starting real life and real work, there were a few that I started becoming aware of. The most obvious is how to use the database and getting information from people. A few mistakes along the way and I’m suddenly less confident in my abilities, despite the fact that I know how to use the system more than most of my colleagues. I just happen to sit next the people who know how to use it the most.
But it’s that not knowing how to start or how to do things that terrifies me so much. I’m currently beginning two pretty big projects that I just don’t really know how to do and whilst I have asked for help, it still doesn’t help enough. I know I know you learn from doing but I also don’t want mess up some important application for money when… we obviously need the money. It’s a fear of failure that it stopping me from even starting.
I feel like my fear is becoming more and more of an impediment. Maybe it’s because I am used to being the star intern and here I am, having come in and the person before me was the star worker and seems to have been able to do everything that I still need to learn how to do. The other thing I’ve realised is that you can learn a lot at an internship but being an intern will never prepare you for the working world where you have to form relationships, fix problems and do all the important tasks that an intern is not allowed to do and consider it in a more long-term manner. I’m still used to having a manager check all my work, so I am consistently asking other members of my department, which may be annoying for them. At the same time, I keep finding I should ask to avoid repeating something that already exists without knowing it because I’m at the weird stage of still being new.
I just feel bad about work. It’s frustrating not to be able to complete the projects on my plate because I am waiting for more information from someone and then as soon as I start again, I get stuck with the “how in the world do I do this?” I like to get things done, as soon as possible. And so I make mistakes because I am delaying my work. At the same time, I get bored because I don’t have enough things to do and then I will have a flurry of things and stress about it and then get bored again because I was trying to be efficient so finished everything. 
My job is great and my colleagues are great, but I think I need to get through this awkward hump of being new but not being new and I just have to learn as much as possible.

    27/08/2014

    Today my colleague asked how long I had been there, saying, “was it since March?” No, in fact, I am approaching my third month at the gallery and it has made me realise that whilst I started confident and ready to take on any challenge, right now I am TERRIFIED of my job.

    Terrified of messing up, terrified of not knowing how to do things and most of all, terrified of my colleagues not liking me or thinking I’m a bad worker. I really didn’t think that I would be succumbed by such fear or start becoming so negative at myself, but there it is, I don’t think I’m that good anymore.

    With any new life venture, there are things you are going to not know how to do. Starting real life and real work, there were a few that I started becoming aware of. The most obvious is how to use the database and getting information from people. A few mistakes along the way and I’m suddenly less confident in my abilities, despite the fact that I know how to use the system more than most of my colleagues. I just happen to sit next the people who know how to use it the most.

    But it’s that not knowing how to start or how to do things that terrifies me so much. I’m currently beginning two pretty big projects that I just don’t really know how to do and whilst I have asked for help, it still doesn’t help enough. I know I know you learn from doing but I also don’t want mess up some important application for money when… we obviously need the money. It’s a fear of failure that it stopping me from even starting.

    I feel like my fear is becoming more and more of an impediment. Maybe it’s because I am used to being the star intern and here I am, having come in and the person before me was the star worker and seems to have been able to do everything that I still need to learn how to do. The other thing I’ve realised is that you can learn a lot at an internship but being an intern will never prepare you for the working world where you have to form relationships, fix problems and do all the important tasks that an intern is not allowed to do and consider it in a more long-term manner. I’m still used to having a manager check all my work, so I am consistently asking other members of my department, which may be annoying for them. At the same time, I keep finding I should ask to avoid repeating something that already exists without knowing it because I’m at the weird stage of still being new.

    I just feel bad about work. It’s frustrating not to be able to complete the projects on my plate because I am waiting for more information from someone and then as soon as I start again, I get stuck with the “how in the world do I do this?” I like to get things done, as soon as possible. And so I make mistakes because I am delaying my work. At the same time, I get bored because I don’t have enough things to do and then I will have a flurry of things and stress about it and then get bored again because I was trying to be efficient so finished everything. 

    My job is great and my colleagues are great, but I think I need to get through this awkward hump of being new but not being new and I just have to learn as much as possible.

    — 2 weeks ago with 1 note

    #Work  #Working world  #Newly graduate  #First Job  #Terrified  #Real World 

    26/08/2014

    Coming back to London seemed both daunting and lonely three months ago. I am so fortunate that I have developed (both existing and new) such a good group of friends that we can sit around dinner on a Tuesday and discuss the deepest parts of our lives and the least deep (like chocolate cake and crazy celebrities). 

    As humans, we are all imperfect beings, yet in a world where perfection is always in your face, it can be easy to forget that everyone else struggles too. Our struggles go up and down all the time and there is a very safe feeling to know that my friends are there for me, but more importantly, I’m there for these lovely girls who I love and admire.

    Plus, best dessert ever?

    — 2 weeks ago with 1 note

    #Friends  #Tuesdays  #Dinner  #Best friends 
    25/08/2014
The final day of my bank holiday weekend was spend the best way I could think of: sleeping, having a relaxing day and then painting. I didn’t like my painting in the end but I am glad that I had such a relaxing day.

    25/08/2014

    The final day of my bank holiday weekend was spend the best way I could think of: sleeping, having a relaxing day and then painting. I didn’t like my painting in the end but I am glad that I had such a relaxing day.

    — 3 weeks ago

    #Bank holiday  #Monday off  #Sushi  #Sleep 

    24/08/2014

    Notting Hill Carnival, Family Day. It was my first time to the carnival, which is actually just shocking since I’ve watched it on tv every year and so my dad, sister and I decided to finally check it out. It was well worth it, the music and dancers were great although the rainy/cloudy weather and huge, drunk crowds did stop me from really getting in the spirit.

    — 3 weeks ago with 1 note

    #Carnival  #Notting Hill  #Notting Hill Carnival  #London  #Spirit of London 

    23/08/2014

    A visit to Salisbury Cathedral. Salisbury has been on the top of my list of places I wanted to go because of John Constable’s painting of the cathedral. Sadly, I couldn’t find the right view (It might not exist anymore? At least not with cows) but the cathedral itself is really lovely and it was a great visit nonetheless.

    — 3 weeks ago

    #Salisbury  #History  #Bank holiday weekend  #England  #Salisbury cathedral